why did it take me so long to accept Her? | Channeled Message from the Morrigan

I received this message January 25, 2024. The beginning of 2024 was the time at which I realized that the Morrigan was not going anywhere, and She likely had been with me for my entire journey -- I was just too blind and hardheaded to see it. I didn't end up actually (re)dedicating to Her until July 2024, though.

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You did not choose the war

The trauma of Death and Gore

Consumed in Grief, forgetting who you are

You did not choose this path

It is simply where you were born

Brought into a cold, unforgiving world

You did not start the war

None of this is on you

But you must choose, child, to fight

To contribute no more

The wages of war is Death; this is unavoidable. You will change, and you will be different after all of this. Do you hear the death bell toll? It must be as water off your back. Allow him his song, and allow your wings to sprout. Some of this is fate and some of this is just bad luck. Do not concern yourself trying to figure out which is which. This is not a display of power, but of fear. The most powerful warrior is one who has accepted death as an inevitability. The most effective Priestess is the one who embraces change. The most beautiful rivers always flow.

Do not allow people around you to influence the way you choose to fight. Perhaps their weapon of choice is a bow; yours, on the other hand, is a sword. Allow this to be as it is. If anyone tries to convince you their way is better, move on immediately.

Begin to make decisions on your flowing, free, and righteous instinct. It will not be the way it was if you are guided by different methods. Forget your longing to return, and instead, remember what you have always been. You are not trapped unless you wish to be. Fight with instinct, fight with courage, and be your honor.

I asked: "Morrigan, why did it take so long for me to accept you?"

Lack of groundedness and connection to the natural world. This also leads to a lack of connection to one's true self, and of course, the truth of the Divine. You had many misconceptions about yourself and who you wanted to become. You had many misconceptions about me and everything I represent. I am death, I am love, and everything in between. I am the warm coziness and the raging, wrathful flames.

You let the gossip about me get in the way. There was also -- and this is big, please understand -- too much publicity surrounding the whole thing. So much pressure you put on yourself to "get it right"... this needed to be put to rest before you could fully step onto and embody your path.

There was some interference, do not forget or discount this! Spirits can be hungry, demonic things, as can human. Your spiritual longing captivated more than me and your ancestors. But do not worry -- this battle has ended, as all battles do. Do not, however, assume there will never be another...

You cast your rods, and the hungry fish swarmed. Yes, you were overwhelmed, and there was a battle, but what has this taught you? There are indeed fish in the sea, and you do in fact have the ability to call them to you, wherever you are.

It is time to commit, dedicate, and devote fully to this path. There is no heaven and no hell -- all that exists is the place between: Life itself. Devotion requires living fully in this place. Do this, now.

Beware the illusions, dogmas, and malintents of others you may come across on this path. Socialize, but do not join the church. Do not rely on external validations.

Allow yourself to create without judgement. Don't worry about the outcome or other peoples' perceptions of your creations. Just watch yourself as you naturally unfold.

Choose yourself, even when doing so may incur the wrath, anger, or severe misunderstandings of another. Your journey is not about anyone else but you. Do not let the fear of anyone or anything get in the way of that.

I am Sovereign

For I am the Queen

Of the world I perceive

Chain me, break me, make me

I will rise

I know how to burn