Where Heaven and Earth Collide | Channeled Message from the Morrigan

I have been doing a lot of introspection lately on the subject of astrology. What do I actually believe about it? Does it really mater what my sun and stars say about who I am, and who I have the potential to become? I think the reason I've been thinking about this so much lately is because of the life changes I will be undergoing soon - namely, shifting my career. It will be a big change for me, one that requires a lot of determination, hard work, and most of all: commitment.

It occurred to me recently that I think I have commitment issues. Lol. May seem obvious from an outsider's perspective, but it took me this long to put a name to this problem of mine. It's not solely the fact that "channeling the Morrigan" and being a practicing witch are out of the norm and some people think it's weird/insane - it's also the fact that in order to truly walk this path, I have to walk it. I have to continue to put one foot in front of the other even when I don't feel like it. In order to fulfill the promises I've made to the Morrigan, I have to keep doing this work even in times when I'm questioning myself and my choices, yet again. I realized that this is also a commitment issue for me. I didn't think it was possible for me to have "commitment issues" since I've been in the same romantic relationship since I was 18 years old, but it is. It's not romantic connections I have trouble committing to, because I've been fortunate enough that those have never been "unsafe" for me. (Though I know that's certainly not everyone's experience.) Historically what's been unsafe for me are friendships, my relationship with authority figures, and spiritual or otherworldly connections. And those are the exact things that I'm always running away from.

Anyway. The reason I bring this up is because I've been unintentionally looking to astrology - namely, my birth chart - for answers to the questions of what I'm meant to do with my life career-wise, and also, am I really channeling messages or am I just crazy? I know it doesn't seem super logical to look to astrology to answer these questions, but it's what I've been doing the past few weeks while I've been on auto-pilot. I wanted a straightforward answer to the question, "What am I doing here on this earth?" because if I had a straightforward answer, maybe it would help me to stop questioning every damn thing I'm doing, and finally just commit to the things I want to do. Commit to this new career path. Commit to the Morrigan. Commit to prioritizing myself. It's not that I don't want these things, it's that they feel unsafe somehow, and so my brain just keeps rattling off all these questions and scenarios of why maybe it feels so wrong.

I've resolved now that I don't care what I'm "supposed to be doing with my life." If anything, the Morrigan has been FIGHTING to get me to see that "supposed to" and "should" are words that do nothing but trap me. Even when it comes to taking care of myself. "I should go to the gym" = feeling shame about my body. "I should go back to school" = feeling shame and/or guilt that I'm not making as much money as some other people my age do. "I should make a video" = feeling guilty for not living up to the productivity standards that no one put onto me but myself. "Should" is going out the window. "Want to" is coming in its place. "I want to go to the gym" = I desire to care for my vessel, and keep it in good working condition, and this is one way that I accomplish that. "I want to go back to school" = I recognize that my current career is making me unhappy in more ways than one, and going back to school is the first step towards changing my career. "I want to make a video" = allowing my creativity to flow, and expressing that in a way that feels natural to me.

All of this is just a preamble to the channeled message. The Morrigan has been confronting me lately about the misconceptions I have about the universe, the world, and the way that everything works. The truth is that no one knows how any of this works, so it's not logical to make big life decisions based on one way of looking at existence or the other. It's not about "should," it's about "want." And what I want will change and shift as I change and shift.

Thursday, November 28, 2024

Everything moves and grows according to its nature. What is your nature? What is the nature of the universe?

Do your stars dictate you, or do you dictate your stars?

Nothing moves independently, by itself. Everything is a reaction: a response to what came before. What came before you? What is your nature?

I am not the Queen of Heaven, but I am the Queen of Earth. To seek me is to seek your fate. The response to Heaven. And Heaven responds, and Hell resounds, and you are yourself.

You need not know their names to feel their effects. No one knows their names, no one knows from whence they came, but we know they are there. We know they are there, for here we are. Did they impregnate our mothers, or did the gleam in our fathers' eye send sparks up into the sky? Perhaps it is a bit of both. Perhaps nothing is true. I can tell you this much: it is certainly much simpler than you could comprehend. In the meantime, worry not what Heaven says. Focus forward, and respond to what you feel. Live with intention and in total truth. This is where heaven and earth collide.